Can you sense the sarcasm?
I'm feeling very philosophical today. Are the things that happen to us meant to lead us to someplace or something in particular? Is there such a thing as fate? Is it possible that my life is already predetermined? Do I even really have a choice? It makes my head spin.
I sure hope that I'm supposed to learn something from losing so many good people in the past in the past 18 months. I hope that it will somehow serve to make me stronger, or more sensitive to others, or lead me down a path that will make the pain of losing them...useful?...in my future?
Maybe I'm just supposed to become tougher? Not get so close to people? I hope not, because that's not part of who I am. Or am I supposed to befriend everyone and be a part of their life to give them something they're missing? Ug, makes me want to scream just contemplating the possibilities.
I guess all I can do is keep moving forward, breath & just wait to see what happens. I can't shut down or shut people out. Fate might have something good planned & I just can't see it yet.
. The pain of losing people closest to us, shows us to LIVE life and expect the unexpected. It shows us to grab opportunities that present themselves. It means falling down, losing our way and just plain moments of complete despair. We make our own destiny and we make the things in life we want to happen,HAPPEN. If you see something in life you want. GRAB IT by the horns and and don't let go.You will get sad and you will at times, travel down an unfamiliar path. Don't let that deter you from what you see as your goals or dreams. Its not easy where you are and with the LOVE and SUPPORT from those of us who love you most. YOU WILL find your place..
ReplyDeletePs I really think you should look into something with children(i.e youth councilor or social worker). You really have a special gift
You know I am, will and always have been your biggest FAN!!!