Can you sense the sarcasm?
I'm feeling very philosophical today. Are the things that happen to us meant to lead us to someplace or something in particular? Is there such a thing as fate? Is it possible that my life is already predetermined? Do I even really have a choice? It makes my head spin.
I sure hope that I'm supposed to learn something from losing so many good people in the past in the past 18 months. I hope that it will somehow serve to make me stronger, or more sensitive to others, or lead me down a path that will make the pain of losing them...useful?...in my future?
Maybe I'm just supposed to become tougher? Not get so close to people? I hope not, because that's not part of who I am. Or am I supposed to befriend everyone and be a part of their life to give them something they're missing? Ug, makes me want to scream just contemplating the possibilities.
I guess all I can do is keep moving forward, breath & just wait to see what happens. I can't shut down or shut people out. Fate might have something good planned & I just can't see it yet.
